being unfair

I’m officially ungrounded from going online from home. my dad and I have been talking more about what goes on in my head. he’s agreed for me to meet some of the people from the forum, as long as he’s around too. some of my lgbtq friends have been asking me to use a different term, since they think “trans-species” is unfair to transgender people. the official term is “species dysphoria,” I think. I think I mentioned it before. there’s also otherkin. if you’re really interested, you can google the term. a good discussions of it is at http://www.otherkin.com/phpBB3/viewtopic.php?f=33&t=3796
I guess I’m tired of people telling me that what I’m going through isn’t real, just because they don’t understand it. it makes me really angry and sad. most of my old friends (from before the lesbian thing) have stopped hanging out with me because they think I’m crazy. but I feel closer to understanding myself than I ever have before. there’s so much confusion in life. it’s so hard to connect to people. sometimes it feels like “normal” people are just looking for any excuse to exclude people that aren’t exactly like them. but no one’s normal. the people that try hardest to fit in are the ones that have to defend their views the most, and I think defending pointless opinions just because you can is a terrible way to be. it’s like they don’t want to think or accept that there’s a whole world outside of their tiny lives. I get it. it’s scary. but that doesn’t make the rest of us stop existing.
it will be nice to meet some people that understand, and talk to them face-to-face, and see how they live. I bet there are a lot of dogs walking around in a human body, and cats, and wolves, and a bunch of nameless animals, too.
I don’t want to cut off the rest of the world just because it keeps trying to cut me off. as the time I get to see my mom again gets closer, I want more than anything to reconnect. I need that. now that I’m starting to understand myself a little more, I think I’ll be able to be around people again. I hope.



25 Responses to “ “being unfair”

  1. Supertom says:

    http://www.otherkin.com/phpBB3/viewtopic.php?f=33&t=3796

    This is even more dead than our forums

  2. Robo-Hitler says:

    Oh powerful and all-knowing Jason, use your infinite wisdom to eradicate this monstrous creation known as “KittyAmy96” from your ever growing website of mysticalness and wonderment. This is a warning and the next time I will bring my entire armada of flying space whales and my sterotipacal black genie walrus to destroy all that you hold sweet and dear.

    • o_O says:

      well mr robo-hitler why don’t you put all supposed trans species people in concentration camps then she’ll be gone…
      change your f***in name to something less offending please. ^v^

  3. o_O says:

    good job at making a forum that is exactly like filmcow’s. also where would your posts happen to be? finally the last page should be the latest comments not the earliest ones just saying.

  4. pablo the bare says:

    oh i thought this was real o at leat i felt bad for the person the i read about transpecies and thought oh this some 10 year old mouron who thinks hes funny well thats not funny when you talk about thinks like this you make them feel sad and you sir are a asshole

    • Supertom says:

      I can’t read that. Get somebody to proofread these things.

      • o_O says:

        I think that it is some sort of a white trash version of this:

        Oh, I thought that this was real. At least I felt bad for the person. I read about tran-species and thought, “Oh! This is some 10 year old moron who thinks that he is funny. Well it is not funny when you talk about someone who thinks like this, you make them feel sad and you, sir, are an as*****.

        Right? I did enjoy how moron was spelled incorrectly.

  5. That Guy That Said That One Thing, Remember? says:

    [Intro: Collipark, Bubba Sparxxx]

    [Chorus:]
    [Ying Yang Twins]
    Booty, booty, booty, booty, rockin’ everywhere [3x]
    Rockin’ everywhere [2x]
    [Bubba Sparxxx]
    I found you MS NEW BOOTY
    Get it together and bring it back to me
    Hit the players club for about month or two
    Put his hand on it then see what he do [2x]

    Get it ripe, get it right, get it tight [4x]

    [1st verse (Bubba Sparxxx)]
    Girl I don’t need you, but you need me
    Take it off, let if flop, shake it freely
    And I don’t tell stories, I let ’em tell theyself
    And you ain’t gotta sell sex, girl,
    it sells itself,
    like nothing else
    Yeah I’m a country boy,
    but that big city bottom fill me up with joy
    Ain’t life grand (life’s grand) living up daddy
    Here go the whisper song, baby this is us ready?
    Put it on me enthusiastically,
    whatever it is that you do, you do it admirably
    And I ain’t choose it, that thing chose me
    It’s Bubba and Ying Yang, all the way in this thing
    Yo!

    [Chorus]

    Get it ripe, get it right, get it tight [4x]

    [2nd Verse]
    Quarter to twelve and we just getting in
    Bubba’s gonna make you spark with the Ying Yang Twins
    Sipping on Patron, blong blong blong
    Shawdy in a thong, whom whom whom
    Ass get the jiggling, MOTHERFUCKING WIGGLYING
    Get that thing shaking, like she frost bit shivering
    Ass be delivering, all type of flashes, cashes
    Got these hoes shaking that molasses
    SHHHHHH
    Let me whisper in your ear
    Get your self together go and buy some new gear
    Do something with your hair then hit the club,
    shake your ass and the player’s gonna show some love
    Do that move you did just a minute ago
    I guarantee you’ll make all the dough
    So gonna do you thing baby, work what you got, to get what you want
    Make that money, don’t let it make you

    [Chorus]

    [3rd Verse (Bubba Sparxxx)]
    hi there, how are things?
    I once was breast man now it seems
    Ever since I had the pleasure
    of getting you together, your chest is just whatever
    I found the buried treasured
    Yes madam, here’s the plan
    Meet me over yonder OK – don’t play
    I’ll bring the whip whoop, you bring your cook book
    And I’m gonna fix that stuff up, everything is good, good

    [Chorus]

    Get it ripe, get it right, get it tight [4x]

  6. Hey Supertom, you suck.

    Your friend
    AEA.

  7. indianasmith says:

    KittyAmy, GO away!
    Don’t come again another day!

  8. Name (required) says:

    “sometimes it feels like “normal” people are just looking for any excuse to exclude people that aren’t exactly like them. but no one’s normal. the people that try hardest to fit in are the ones that have to defend their views the most, and I think defending pointless opinions just because you can is a terrible way to be. it’s like they don’t want to think or accept that there’s a whole world outside of their tiny lives. I get it. it’s scary. but that doesn’t make the rest of us stop existing.”

    This is honestly a really intelligent post. It’s gotten to the point where this isn’t just teen girl drama, or otherkin/furry subculture shenanigans. I really thought these stories would turn towards that as they progressed, but it only became better. These posts raise up important philosophical concepts. KittyAmy started out as your average teen girl, but the more I read, the more I can see what a fleshed-out person she is (although I would like side content too, instead of having her entire existence revolve around her identity; perhaps posts about her favorite music or memories?).

    I’m really starting to grow attached to this character. I’ve never believed that KittyAmy was real. But she is. Maybe not in the literal sense, but in the sense of something we’ve all experienced before. She is us, looking for our identity as a teenager, and maybe even now. She is the ostracized person in us, the person we’re afraid to let out. All of our insecurities, anger, hopes, innocence, and what have you.

    FilmCow isn’t the website I would go to to expect intelligence over humor, but now I think that’ll change. Video updates are FilmCow’s primary form of media, of course, but having a little bit of thinking food on the side really complements it all. I can’t say for sure that I know what this is all about, or who’s even posting it, but keep it up.

  9. Kevolution says:

    I hate to say it, but their is a difference between not fitting in and being totally freakin crazy. But who am I to judge? Maybe I’ll grow to be a sheep.

  10. Atheist says:

    This has been going on for a long time

  11. Muffin Man says:

    Okay I am fairly certain that the otherkin website is real. If Jason made it it would have obviously staged profiles. But if you look closely their “animal types” are not the stereotypical animal. There’s “mixed” “dragon” even “human”. Plus there is more than one topic on the site. So unless Jason decided to be REALLY thorough with this I think the site was made by someone other than Jason. So there.