why is this happening

sorry I haven’t been writing here. things have been surreal and I wasn’t really sure where to start. so I guess I’ll do what that song says and start at the beginning.

my dad was using my computer the other day because his had a virus and he looked at my search history and found out that I’ve been trying to find information about being a cat trapped in a person’s body. it’s called “species dysphoria” or trans-species. anyway, my dad asked me about it. I tried to act like I was just researching it for something for school, but then he started crying and said that the same thing had happened to my mom. that my mom wasn’t really dead. that she was a cat.

only he said that she THOUGHT she was a cat. that it’s something she struggled with for a long time. that it was why they got divorced. she had been sick, but she got better. it wasn’t the cancer that killed her. cancer was what made her stop acting like she wasn’t what she knew she was all along. my mom’s a cat.

he was hoping that with me it would be a case of nurture over nature. that I would be ok with being a human. but he was wrong.

he said my mom’s been at a commune with people like her. with other trans-species people. he wouldn’t tell me what it was called because he doesn’t want me to go there. but I can’t believe it. my mom is alive. my mom is not dead. my mom is alive. as hard as it was to accept her death, it’s now equally hard to accept that she’s alive. not only is she alive, she’s like ME.

I can’t believe my dad lied to me about my mom dying. I go between hating him and understanding why he did it. to him, mom as a cat is as good as being dead because she’s not a person. what he doesn’t get is that she was never a person. she was just pretending.

I have to find her. or at least get in touch with her. I’ll write more when I have more information. there’s still a lot I don’t understand about the situation. is her husband still with her? is he a cat too? is she getting surgery to be more like a cat?

as much confusion that I have, so many things make sense now. and my mom is alive.



126 Responses to “ “why is this happening”

  1. Me says:

    what the fudge?

  2. Satan says:

    THE GAME IS OVER… I’M SICK OF USING MINDLESS WORDS, IT’S TIME TO TAKE ACTION. BY THE TIME THIS POST IS READ I SHALL HAVE ALREADY RELEASED A LEGION OF DEMONS TO TERMINATE THE SOURCE OF THIS MINDLESS CHATTER ONCE AND FOR ALL!!! YOU MAY HAVE A FEW ALLYS BUT I AM NUMEROUS!!! PREPARE FOR THE END BRRRRAAAAAWWWHAHAHAAHAHA!!!!!!
    Love,
    Satan :)

  3. Nking says:

    I’m guessing Jason was high on something, possibly nyquil, when he came up with this, and I’m not sure i would want this to be one of the characters in a video. It would be kinda depressing and have way to much depth for me to properly enjoy the random hilarious jokes in most filmcow videos

    • Nking says:

      Also I bet Jason reads all these comments and thinks my fans are a**holes no wonder they like my videos.

  4. OneWithTheShades says:

    Oooookay, so we decided to go a completely different direction from the “depressed confused girl” story huh? Cats trapped in people, fathers crying, secrets being revealed.

    This “blog” has officially become far too silly to continue reading…

  5. Mathias says:

    Well, this was unexpected. Almost as much as the pi-tattoo on Jasons girlfriends chest.

    Anyway, this is also the first blog in the KittyAmy96 chronicles that entertained me. The blog should have been like this from the beginning. It’d have been almost as good as a bi-monthly filmcow animation. Oh well, now that Jason has finally made a public announcement of the filmcow goings-ons it really doesn’t matter too much what this blog is all about.

    And in case there are any animal lovers out there who reads this. Go join PETA and cry about everything with likeminded idiots, and keep your idiotic crusade against carnivores to yourselves, in which case it isn’t really a proper crusade, but who cares? You suck anyway. I love meat and mario is not promoting animal cruelty by wearing fictional animal suits whenever he is powered up.

  6. myeggs says:

    there’s a goddamnanimal in the house! *mau*

  7. Sivad says:

    I have no idea what to say to this…Her mom thinks she’s a cat, and now the daugher thinks she’s a cat also.

  8. Karma says:

    Wow. Y’know… It’s amazing.

    I continue to be absolutely amazed by all of the long-winded, humorless, imbecilic morons here that continue to take these entries so fucking seriously.

    Are you people really this stupid? Are you?

    You’ve got a bunch of people that STILL believe that “KittyAmy96″ is a real person.

    And then, you have all of the dumbasses that keep posting these overly long tirades about this “How dare you do something that isn’t Llama and Charlie Cartoons, Jason! You owe us, and if you do not cease with doing what you want to do with your own site, I’m going to leave. No really, I mean it. I know I said a month ago I would leave but 3 months later, I really mean it this time, Jason. I’m leaving, really. I need to make a big production about it and how much I hate you for causing a slight inconvenience in my life, but I hate you now for some reason” crap.

    Honestly, I think I see exactly what this is, for what it is.

    A calculated social experiment by Jason Steele to see just how far the depths of stupid people and their stupid fucking comments on ridiculous messages can run.

    You have half of these people who are easily confused and have no idea what’s going on, so they leave incredibly stupid comments that make them look like morons…. and then another half of people who post humorless, elitist, entitled, whiny horseshit that also makes them look like morons, with all of them taking these posts way more seriously than they should ever take anything on the internet.

    I can safely say that Jason’s social experiment here is a resounding success. Nearly everyone posting on these KittyAmy posts seem to be a fucking dumbass in one of two major regards: Those who are too stupid to get it, and those who are too stupid to get over it.

    Jason will go down in history as a master satirist. He’s successfully made more people reveal their own impossible stupidity to the world than anyone else has ever done, and all he’s had to do is post a series of nonsensical journal entries under an assumed name.

    He’s clearly on at least 27 entire levels above the insipid peons that continue to flock to this site and proceed to embarrass themselves by continually whining like brainless, confused, hopelessly self-important, semi-retarded kamikaze lemmings.

    • Karma says:

      P.S: This being the case, I really don’t see what the big deal is, here.

      Jason’s clearly just screwing around for fun, and you guys are just being so goddamn serious about this.

      Fact is, you don’t have to read these entries, it’s really not inconveniencing any of you THAT much, and it’s not even remotely worth getting bent out of shape about.

      But yet the comments here seem to either consistently be “I don’t get this, I don’t get it, is Amy real?” or “grrrr you have ruined my life with these entries Jason, now I must tell you exactly why and how you’re ruining my life because I have nothing better to do in my actual life, than to uselessly bitch at you.”

      Lighten the hell up. If you don’t like the posts, don’t friggin’ read ‘em. No one is holding you at gunpoint to do so. Even though so many of the replies look as if he is.

      So my point stands. Jason is making pretty much the majority of people look like absoutely fools of their own accord and he hasn’t had to do anything except spout some nonsense under an assumed name, that way too many people care so much about while claiming that they don’t, or just blissfully missing the small point of it in the first place.

      I can feel IQ points being drained just seeing some of you clods react like test rabbits being poked with a stick.

    • ThatOneChick says:

      I disagree with the fact that ALL of the comments are like that. One of the reasons a lot of people are confused about the “girl” is because there are some people posting who CLAIM TO KNOW HER. Is it bullshit? Yes. Is it confusing, still? Yes. I don’t know if she’s real, because there is always the tiny, tiny chance that she is, but even if he is trolling us, I make comments based on the posts because, hey, they’re still posts and their content deserves to be discussed. I’ve never threatened to leave because his videos are fucking funny as hell. A lot of people do leave because if he’s trolling us, he’s a dick, and if he’s not, then he’s something of a dick for at least not letting us know, “Hey. I’m not doing shit anymore. Bye.” So, I do beg of you… Get off your goddamned high-horse, because the fact that you posted this comment at all makes you just as stupid as the people you belittle. Okay? Okay.

      • OneWithTheShades says:

        Loving this.

      • Awesomesauce says:

        I agree.

        You say that everyone is stupid because they think it is a real girl when it isn’t and spam their hatred for her. But, you fail to see that you have no evidence that this is a farce giving your comments the same credibility as everyone else here.

        And also, if Jason is a “Master Satirist”(which he probably is) as you say he is then he would have seen when the joke has gone on for far too long.

        If he is at least 27 entire levels above us “insipid peons” then why does he continue to write this crap (no offense to you Jason) when it is obviously bad for this website and for his new feature film? That doesn’t sound like a genius AT ALL. It sounds more like the actions of an idiot who fails to see the consequences of his fans turning on him.

        And finally, if you’re so fucking smart then why are you mad or even a little bit surprised that complete idiots flock to a website that post videos about LLAMAS WITH FUCKING HATS!?!

        People don’t come here for this shit.

        As far as I’m concerned you and KittyAmy96 can get the fuck off website.

        • That Guy That Said That One Thing, Remember? says:

          I come here for this shit. Regarding whether or not it’s gone on too long, I don’t see why you should end the joke if you haven’t said the punchline yet.

  9. Mofo Taco says:

    I told you all the cat at the top right corner had something to do with this!
    But seriously, Jason has to have something to do with this becasue he didnt comment on any of these kittyamy posts. HAHA
    I am still rather confused though, like, what up with amy being a cat… I mean it would explain her personality traits.
    Amy is all like bored and depressed and avoids people. Cats are all like, im just ganna sit here all sad and pretend you dont exist because im better than you… ugh this is rather astray….

  10. Person says:

    Your mom is detective mittens?? If i were you, i wouldn’t be so proud.

  11. evilweasil says:

    let us get to 100

  12. That Guy That Said That One Thing, Remember? says:

    101?

  13. Awesomesauce says:

    Why do you even bother continuing to write about your sad life when all people do is shit all over it and you.

    On that note…

    Fuck You Very Much for this blog.

  14. Daniel says:

    Everyone needs to start having a little more compassion and halt the construction of these ignorant theories. Amy asked me to change the tone of the responses she’s been getting because frankly its not what she or anyone would have expected. She takes this seriously and spills her thoughts more openly here than she would with her closest friend.
    I hacked filmcow a while back using a very simple brute force technique as a belated birthday for Amy. This blog was suppose to provide the private journal she needed as well as the support that she so desperately lacked. It was important for her that her journal entries remained separate from the comments. But she still expected to find a flowerbed of sympathetic readers.

    So far its been a garbage dump of talk about Jason Steele and lamas. Jason contacted me though the email I registered Amy’s account with and threatened me with legal action. However, after I explained what I had done for Amy he agreed to let it be and has pledged that he will not interfere. These posts have nothing to do with Jason.

    Please stop using these posts as washing boards for your curiosity. There are official filmcow message boards where you may talk about filmcow.

    This must always be a place for Amy to connect and share without risking personal exposure.

    Please, please, take your conversations about filmcow else place and respect the sanctuary Amy has found here.

    • Totalspaz says:

      I can’t believe you have the nerve to tell people to stop talking about filmcow on the filmcow website. This is not amy’s personal blog; if she wanted a private place to post her feelings, then she could have used WordPress which allows users to create their own personal blog pages. This website was never hers to begin with, and she does not need to post here, especially as it is the exact opposite of a sanctuary for her. This is a fanclub for psychopathic llamas and pessimistic unicorns, not a place for strangers to post their feelings, especially if they want to keep them private.

      And for the record, this was all said in a “matter-of-fact” tone, not an angry tone, so don’t spaz out with your reply.

      • Daniel says:

        I completely understand your perspective, it’s a very unique website that would allow this kind of thing. But I have to point out that while you may be slightly confused with the unusual circumstances of the site, at the moment you are incorrect to assert that this is not Amy’s personal blog. It most certainly is.

        WordPress is great for people who write about the joys of drinking coffee and posting pictures about the fuzziest caterpillar they’ve ever seen. And no one is going to visit these kind of sites without heavy marketing and time for the audience to grow. Telling Amy to go share her thoughts on WordPress is like asking a musician to play his music in the alley behind the Chinese restaurant instead of the street corner above the subway.

        Based on your relatively calm demeanor adjacent your blunt personality I’m not sure if you’re really ready to accept something like this. Amy isn’t looking to paint her feelings over basement walls. If you can’t open your heart to her you should find a new street corner to spread your preach your desolate interpretation.

    • ThatOneChick says:

      WOW.

      Okay. Look, fella, if you’re lying and just enjoy fucking with people, then you’re a dick. I’m just THROWING that out there, ‘kay?

      If you’re telling the truth, you’re not only a dick, but you’re also kind of an idiot. This is not a ‘sanctuary.’ This is an official blog for a stupidly entertaining series of videos. If Amy’s real and these are her real problems, okay, well, bloody good for her then. But you still stole this blog, and Jason probably let you because he thinks it’s funny. If you honestly think people are going to take her posts seriously, you’re an idiot. This is a blog for updates about the videos, not a vent-site for some teenage girl.

      If she wants to vent, there are places for that. This is a place to talk about Filmcow. There are official blog sites to talk about your problems.

      This must always be a place for Jason Steele to post updates and for us to not be distracted by the increasingly annoying nature of these ambiguous posts.

      Please, please, take your posts about Amy and her problems elsewhere and allow Jason Steele to continue to use HIS OWN GODDAMN BLOG.

      Thank you.

  15. River says:

    Good luck Amy <3

    • Daniel says:

      Thank you River, that’s the kind of positive spirit that Amy needs. If you have any similar experiences feel free to share them.

      Cheers

  16. Carlo says:

    So what ya smokin

  17. Uberjason says:

    obviously she is becoming detective mittens

  18. Uberjason says:

    mittens!!!! we seem to have a new case.